[+]About 10/4

What was i thinking! !! This is my life and how can I let someone take it away! !! Saying this felt good, but it doesn't change a thing! !!

I can accept the fact that everything that happened that night was all reasonable and yet my mind defies all reason, cause it always wants something more than it gets. Why can't i just accept the fact that i am a vermin and i deserve this... Why not???? Why do i have to be something special???? Why can't I just be some random nut??

Well.. I am doing good today!! Not altogether reassured, but getting along and accepting the fact that everything has been done! !! I'll never forget the day or '! !!'....

What's more important is that there is just two days left in college and then it's exams. So it's all coming to an end with college, friends and more importantly '! !!'. So, irrespective of whether '! !!' realizes that it's coming to an end, I am going to make it perfect till then. I won't be a jealous prick anymore. All i want is some exclusivity for being with '! !!' for 2 years.