[+] Unforgiven

The past is very important to everyone... No matter how much people say things like ' you can always turn over a new leaf' or when they say things like 'forgive and forget', don't trust them. Cause they never are. Once a criminal always a criminal.

It really hurts when people close to us don't give a damn about how you feel. It's all totally ok to them cause at some point of time you have done something similar to them. Well if you think apologizing and begging and pleading for like years and even shedding tears and asking for forgiveness had changed stuff between you and that person, guess again, you thought wrong! !! Even if that person does realize that you have turned over a new leaf, it doesn't matter. Revenge is a sweet memory it seems.

Why am i so bitter.. Remember the big party i was talking about! !! Yes it did happen and it was probably the most depressing , humiliating and degrading thing that has ever happened to me. Four years and a person thinks that I'm not even worth mentioning because someone else was more important than me! !! I don't care if the other person was more important and more whatever, I felt i deserve better treatment after everything i went through for love! !! Atleast a warning of what's coming would have been nice! !!

I have done a lot of bad stuff.. I've kinda spoilt the other person's life but at some point in time I realized everything and begged, pleaded for another chance. But none came even when there were promises of something better. Maybe i don't deserve another chance, maybe I am the worst person in the world, all i wanted was some respect for what i tried to do.

Everything's over. All said and done. I can't change anything about it. But i loved '! !!'. Sorry for what i did..But even now if you can't treat me like another living being after all the promises. I don't know. Things are just hard as it is, I don't know what to do. I have tried my best....